I asked for change and I got it.
My degree was finished, and I felt another deep longing to turn inward and release myself from the constraints of culture.
I was trying to work out how to maintain a path of enlightenment while working jobs and pursuing a career in the density of the Australian lifestyle.
After my level 2 Reiki attunement I went began my Kundalini awakening. Every imbalanced energy present in my relationships was brought to light. And the mutlidimensional/past life aspects started to be seen. Either through dreams, intuition or conversations with mentors.
I could feel how totally out of control the fire seemed to be burning. The little ego standing no chance against the greater energies pouring into physical reality.
Having already cleansed my karma with my ex girl friend by allowing the past life of Patrick to admit to her (his wife in that time period) that he was in fact homosexual, we had ended and now I was experiencing the disillusionment of disonnecting from the ancestral programming. The person I was asked to play was still alive on the outside, but inwardly I no longer shared enough of a reality with them to sustain a connection.
I felt immense pressure to get a graduate job, move on with the “correct” things in life but in reality, all of that was always a side game for me. I wanted to wake up, remember myself and live as a divine being.
I got a job, or two, but it was against the guidance of my higher levels and so it wouldn’t stick. My insomnia flaired up and I did not sleep for a week. Promptly quitting the job due to medical concerns and seeking a brain scan, which showed nothing abnormal.
The knowingness that it was time to leave was clear. I felt like myself and everyone around me had gone slightly insane. Only I was doing it with a multidimensional opening and the assistance of very capable teachers and mentors.